today i didnt do much except go to school. later im going to work but thats not what im here to talk about. i would prefer to talk about yesterday. Yesterday after i went to school i went home and was bored. around 4 i met up with my g/f lucia and we went to ridgewood theater to go see Balls of Fury. We were the only ones in the movie theater. We watched the movie and talked a little. After the movie we walked a couple of blocks to the FYE on myrtle ave and i bought her a marilyn manson dvd she wanted. We decided to drop by my job and say hi to my coworkers because i knew juan wasnt there because he got transfered to another store, yay. she had to be home kinda early so i walked her to her house. She stepped inside and i waited in the hallway. She came back out and we just held each other and talked until 920 because i had to be home at 930. Im gonna hang with her b4 i have to go to work today so im happy about that. also glad i only work 3 hours today. 

Current Mood: happy

*sigh*  well what a surprise. once again another girl that i have liked just wishes to remain friends. am i cursed to stay friends with every girl i like?  its not fucking fair.  i am 19 and i have not even been in one relationship. i have not even had a first kiss. what kind of world is this? why am i so fucking pathetic. what the fuck is wrong with me? am i that fucking ugly? or maybe its my personality. gosh is it that im not enough of an asshole for girls? wtf man    -_-

Current Mood: depressed
Current Music: Everything You Want - Vertical Horizon

These days it just seems like no matter what I do nothing ever goes right. Was I not meant to have friends who do not flake on plans. God, I am just so tired of it. I mean, c'mon. I have a freaking job so I only get Sunday and Monday off. Wow, two days that I have a chance to do something. One, if you count the fact that not many people like to hang out on Sundays. I wish that I could have a group of friends as dedicated to hanging out as much as I am. But that seems impossible. I am forever cursed to deal with people who do not show up, flake at the last minute,and don't even have the decency to call me and tell me they are not going. It seems to me that I am not even worth anybodies time if I can be brushed aside so fucking easily. Everybody always magically seems to find a way to hang out with other people but when it comes to Jonathan he can't get anyone to hang out for his fucking life. I'm just sick of it. -_-  Is there some kind of anti-Jonathan club out there or something? Tell me plz so I can join and then maybe I will have ppl to hang with.

Current Mood: disappointed
Current Music: Loser - 3 Doors Down

well lucky for me today was one of the shortest days of college ever. my english prof who hasnt been there for three weeks finally shows up and lets us leave a half hour into the class, coupled with the fact that i didnt have history today because i have a test to take online i ended up getting out at 845. after class Joe and I walked around the streets of manhattan. after awhile we went to his house and i was playing with his electric guitar as he was using his computer. around 1230 he dropped me off at my house because he had something to do. at around 330 basim came over and we went walking around myrtle ave. we went back to my house and he left around 8. now im here sort of stressing about all these essays i have to do. ghey.

Current Mood: exhausted

       Well it shouldn't be a surprise that I haven't been having the greatest of weeks but at least i was able to have a fun day of

       hanging with my friends. Today Richard, Gisele, Rhiannon, Chris and I went to hang out in Manhattan. We went ove rthere

       w/o a plan so we just did w/e we could think of. Which incidently wasn't much. We went to eat at Sbarro and Mcdonalds. We

       also went to the Virgin Megastore. While everyone  was in Sbarro, I went to Billabong to go see my friend Meredith. We talked
       for a bit and then I let her get back to work. Wouldn't want her to get fired, now would I? Anyway, ended up getting home a bit

       before 7 and just watched some TV. Not the most eventful day but indeed one of the most fun.

Current Mood: content